수요일, 7월 09, 2008
Hanging by a thread of sanity
I feel like a walking zombie.
Trying desperately to suppress the impatience and anxiety that builds up in me as some kids try to challenge every ounce of tolerance remaining in me.
Eunjun (yes he's back but not for long though) just revealed that next week there might even more kids coming for the morning program. The thought just never fails to excite me. Argh.
RT is definitely gonna choke on the gigantic piece of cake that they tried to bite off. Someone should knock some sense into them that the obvious lack of manpower perhaps hints that they should just put a stop to the increasing enrolment figures. I am sick of working for the whole day and i am pretty sure i aint the only one. My patience gets worn down with every passing minute and i loathe it when i feel the urge to show it in front of the students. But when weariness overcomes you and the kids are not cooperating, its extremely taxing to force myself to keep my patience in check.
Self-control does have its own limits, if you havent noticed.
And its not the first time i brought up the issue that i just want to work once a week for the morning program but yet everytime something crops up like some teacher cant make it blah, too many students to handle blah so yeah i become the sacrificial lamb.
The money is not enticing to me now..
When my sanity threatens to break down anytime.
But a piece of good news though. Finally told them about my impending trip to korea and at first mrs. kang was quite taken aback and her first words were: "(cos of) Dongbangshinki?" Lol. Of cos i shook my head violently in objection but i think it is evident they are one of the key factors that fueled the decision to go this year. Ha. Anyway they were quite supportive after hearing that i intend to go to yonsei and kept telling me stuff here and there. Mrs. kang even insisted that i promise to go back to RT upon returning but hmm..
Its not really my cuppa tea?
I will see how it goes then.
Cos i am actually more keen on working in Samsung. Just met a lady who is my mum's patient cum friend at the clinic last week and she used to be the regional HR director of samsung! Ok that is waaay up there can. She mentioned that they once sent a singaporean guy to one of the universitites in korea to study korean for 2 years. *envious* Hopefully she will be able to lend me a helping hand when i come back..Hee.
Survival in the society needs a whole bunch of strings to be pulled sometimes. Lol.
And i finally bought my luggage at Beauty World~ Its red. And so is the backpack i bought in perth. And so are my handphone, earphones, electronic dictionary case etc and i aint planning to stop there.. Haha.
Pearl red remember? ^^
Oh as for eunjun he's going back to korea on Aug 4th til late september. Promised to be my tour guide in exchange for food so he better not go back on his end of the bargain. XD
지금 다 빨리 끝나면 좋겠다.
이렇게 도망가기 내가 원하지 않아도 이미 늦었으니까 돌아보지 못 해.
꿈에 향하기만 갖고 있는 생각 충분할까?
또 울어버렸다.. @ 8:31 AM